Losing You

I flip through the pages of my picture book

And think on how you used to look

I read the notes you gave to me

Eloquent words, I wish had come to be

Memories fill my heart and soul

But quickly disappear into a big black hole

That one you left inside my heart

Please just someone finish ripping it apart

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

Why did you have to be so perfect

I loved you to the core

I want it to be the way it was back then

So I can be happy and smile again

Then I see your face

The memories I can’t erase

Why wont these feelings die

So I wont have to live behind a lie

Now I watch you move on

I come to realize, your totally gone

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

Why did you have to be so perfect

I loved you to the core

I want it to be the way it was back then

So I can be happy, and smile again

There are plenty of girls in my life

Some who want to be my wife

But it just seems so wrong

I know that’s not where they belong

All this pain and misery I’ve been going through

Is because of the love I have for you

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

Why did you have to be so perfect

I loved you to the core

I want it to be the way it was back then

So I can be happy and smile again

Living in Denial

That old familiar feeling is back again

With a new determination to win

It has been incubating inside

While I have been telling myself lies

Denial I thought was my friend

But in the end I will never mend

So I sit in loneliness and regret

Pondering on the one I never met

And reminiscing on those I cannot forget

But that’s all I have it seems

Memories and little dreams

And yet I continue on

 Looking for a new dawn

That will bring me warmth and enlighten my soul

Allowing blissful emotions to flow

Instead of the ones that will make me rot

Scaring away those that I have sought

Keeping me in my fear

As the song of loneliness plays in my ear

After the trials and strife

He sits and dreams, but he’s all alone

She waits for the one to call on the phone

Two separate lives

And yet the same

He’s face rejection in so many ways

She’s been hurt by men all her days

When will they meet the one

To hug and kiss and just have fun

To laugh and play

Calling each other to just say “hey”

Now he’s moving on to other grounds

Thinking no one will notice him around

While she does her thing

That some old routine

Both thinking to themselves

When will I meet the one

To hug and kiss and just have fun

To laugh and to play

And I  can call them up to just say “hey”

Then one unexpected day

Fate had something different to say

By chance these two did meet

And generated some loving heat

With out words they seemed to understand

Each others life and demands

But the thought to themselves

Have I met the one

That I can hug, kiss and just have fun

We can laugh and play

Maybe we can just call each other to say “hey”

In future days their lives were full of bliss

Gently holding each other they kiss

So after their trials and strife

They began their brand new life

Friends with Benefits

Some people say

Friends with benefits

Are those who do more then play

They are those who hug and kiss

And that is their bliss

But what I say

Is you can have bliss

But never ever kiss

Simply by then being there

To listen and care

Not worrying if we like each other

And sometimes acting as father of mother

So friends with benefits

Is deeper then you think

And yet plain as ink

No Trust

When there is no trust

There is no unity

And you can’t be as one

Instead there is mutiny

And rebellion comes straightway

Then relationships perish

With contention on the horizon

There is no more peace

All Alone

I sit and wait as time passes by

Wishing you were here, I want to cry

I feel incomplete without you

And wonder what will happen when the time is due

I hope that it will be

Our dreams and of course you and me

Then we will be together forever

And never will we part, not ever

So for now I write you this poem

As I sit feeling alone

Wanting to tell you

I love you

Pains of Goodbye

As now the time comes to depart

I leave with you simply my heart

For the times we had together

Will stay with me forever

The beautiful person you are

I know you will go far

So as your heartaches

Tears come and you start to shake

You will always have a friend

One who will always have a hand to lend

And sorrow will end

So now as we depart

Remember you are always in my heart

Stars

Twinkling in the sky

Like a tear in my eye

Shinning so bright

Your eyes they light

Deepening the moment

Bringing our souls together

I seem as light as a feather

Caressing your skin

Love swells within

As I look in your eye

It glitters like the stars in the sky

Beauty Within

The beauty of the skin

But does it go deep within

To many beautiful faces

They come in all sort of races

Strutting their body

They seem to be a hottie

But the beauty of the soul

Is what makes them whole

Black Hole

Seven months have gone by

Yet in my dreams she still abides

Haunting me from day to day

To be rid of her, is what I pray

Yet her memories remain

Stuck on me like a dark stain

Always there never fading

My peace of mind she is invading

Not allowing me to move on

My ability to love is already gone

Even when she is out of my life

She continually sucks what’s good from me

To cause me strife

I am in Hell

No doubt about it

How do I leave my cell

When It’s an endless pit

No ceiling, floor, or walls

Just a black hole, which I continually free fall

Will there ever be an end

Can my heart ever mend

Angel Lips

Luscious and smooth

They are perfectly formed

Gentle and soft

They are lovingly warm

Angel lips they are to me

With every kiss

In heaven I be

And while I’m away

Those Angel lips I miss

Longing for their heavenly bliss

As I look at you

As I look at you

I feel myself get surrounded by your love

Like a Heavenly gift being sent to me

From up above

And when you come towards me

I can feel my self

Start to tremble and shake

For my Love for you

Within me starts to ache

Then the beauty of your face

Comes to me with sweet embrace

And the love I had comes rushing back to me

But it pains me for I fear the love is gone you once had for me

So I keep the pain deep inside my soul

As days go by and months move on

And still I think of you

I play the field

But I can’t forget the memories of us two

Now I got to leave and I wonder will you ever think of me

So I pray that the right thing will come to be

Then the beauty of your face

Comes to me with sweet embrace

And the love I had comes rushing back to me

But it pains me for I fear the love is gone you once had for me

So I keep the pain deep inside my soul

And hope one day I will again be whole

Skinny Dipping

Stripped of materials, pride, and innocence

It’s just us two

Generating heat together

As we’re surrounded in the coldness of the water

Your soft silky skin

Brushes up against mine

Sends a chill through my body

And yet seduces my senses

We pull each other close

And gently we kiss

There’s nothing between us

There’s nothing to hide

We are both so vulnerable

Yet we fear nothing

Our trust is complete

Uniting our souls

We become one

And never to be undone.

The Puppet

Another one breaks my heart

This time completely shattering it apart

She toyed with my heart strings

Like a stupid little puppet thing

The moment it gets a little tangled

You throw it to the corner so its totally mangled

Becoming worthless and of no use

Being kicked around

Taking all sorts of abuse

Eventually it gets thrown out with the trash

And just like that I’m gone with a flash

What the Hell did I do wrong

To be tortured for a time that seems so long

This cycle never ends

I get screwed over

Then they want to be friends

But I can’t do what they want

Because of her smile

It turns from joy and begins to haunt

It torments me so

To insanity I go

Letters to my wife

I lay in my room knowing I’m alone

 Feeling sad and depressed even to the bone

I long for you to hold me just to feel your touch

It’s not a lot, I don’t require much

With your presence, I surge with emotion

It’s indescribable, it’s your secret potion

Filling me with desire

Like and uncontrollable fire

Enslaving me to your will

You have become my zeal

And the enrapture in my soul

Purges me whole

Still I long for that day

When we will be together and say

I Love you for all time

And I’m so happy you are mine

Through the Storm

With each passing day

It’s just another moment with out you

Slowly slipping away

I’m not sure where you are

But I will keep searching

As long as we are under the same star

As each second ticks by

My mind wonders if I’m in a lie

But my heart grows fonder

With gentle thoughts of you I ponder

I know we will be together

But not till after the storm of loneliness I weather

For I know you will take me in

And my tattered heart you will win.

My Mask

Self intoxication

My veins flow with anger and bitterness

Giving me relief

From the other option before me

My blood fills my body with rage

Only to extinguish the pain facing me

Such fury I regret to have

Suppressing my true emotions

Disguising my sadness

Turning depression

Into a fueled fire of madness

But even then

That can’t e seen

For my mask covers everything

Displaying only what is desired expected

For others to see

Can You?

Can you miss something you have never had

Causing your heart to ache and feel only…. Sad

Can you feel the touch you have never felt

Or taste the kiss you’ve never been dealt

Can you hear the words that have never been said

Which ignite your soul as if you were dead

Can you see them laying next to you

Beautiful and glistening like the morning dew

Even though you have never seen their face

And they seem to live in a far distant place

Can you feel me though we have never touched

Do you know that I love you oh so much

Can you see me standing there holding your hand

Then carrying you off to a far distant land

Showing you the beauties and wonders of this earth

But letting you know, you’re of the greatest worth

Can you see us together

As I do, united for forever

Waiting

It’s winter time again

And I’m lonely as can be

And thoughts of you that might have been

Go racing thru every part of me

Then I see your face

And how I long for your embrace

But a part of me just turns away

For this time we have to stray

So now I wait a while

Till the day I can kiss your smile

Now as time passes by

My feelings, they cannot lie

With each passing day

My words, for I dare not say

Then I see your face

And how I long for your embrace

But a part of me just turns away

For this time we have to stray

So now I wait a while

Till the day I can kiss your smile

Then I’ll stay with you

With this love brand new

For all Eternity

Pains of Goodbye

As now the time comes to depart

I leave with you simply my heart

For the times we had together

Will stay with me forever

The beautiful person you are

I know you will go far

So as your heartaches

Tears come and you start to shake

You will always have a friend

One who will always have a hand to lend

And sorrow will end

So now as we depart

Remember you are always in my heart

Heart Beats

As the sun melts away

Behind the rugged horizon

The beating of your heat

Seems to make music with mine

Your hair blows in the wind

And the sunrays gleam in your eyes

The crowed hush’s as you walk by

To pay tribute to your Beauty

I gently place my arm around you

To show the crowd how lucky I am

You pull close to me and I to you

To feel the beating of your heart

In response to mine

The warmth you bring, comforts me

And I know the love I have for you

Is returned by the love you have for me.

Eternal Roots

I was born to win

I am here to succeed

Though at times I may fail

I know where I have come from

My eternal roots are royal

I have everything going for me

And at times I am tested

My faith starts to waver

I remember my brother

My light house in the storm

He knows my pains

He has conquered

And so will I

The Rose in the thicket

There is a rose in a thicket

Beginning to bud

But it’s hid by the thorns

It’s down near the mud

As beautiful as it is

And as radiant it seems

It fears to grow

And reach for its dreams

With a little mud on its petals

The rose is weighed down in despair

This beautiful rose is now feeling hopeless

It’s going to die in its dark thorny lair

Now the rain comes down

The rose stops budding

It’s given up hope

Then the sun shines thru

Illuminating the thicket

With a small little ray warming the petals

The rose lift’s its petals

Discovering it’s now sitting higher

The rain had washed the rose clean

The rose that was in despair

Is now rising above its dark, thorny lair…